I wondered for a long time what I would actually do for my 3,000th page view. And as I wondered I reflected on the great place deviantART really is. I was going to post something I had written a long time ago; a time when depression had wound its way into every aspect of my life and as I re-read what I had once written, I realized I had changed. But how, how had I changed? What caused this sudden change? And part of me thought maybe it was because of Tony but then I realized no, I had changed before him. But how can I have changed when nothing drastic had happened. I didn’t just wake up one morning and realized I had changed. And as I pondered this question I realized my answer, and that answer is you. All of you on here, everybody that takes their time out of their lives to read my journals, my deviations, and my comments; and when I have a bad day you guys are the first to give me the bits of happiness and joyous comments to make me better. Since I have been apart of the great community of deviantART I have grown so much and learned so much. I learned how to trust. My relationships with all of you are based on that trust. And in the beginning, I did not trust much. But now, you all have made that so much easier. I learned that things are never as bad as they seem and when they are, I know where I can turn. I know I can come to any of you because you have taught me that I am loved! And my love for all of you is equally returned! So as I write this I think of the many times I have sent notes to some of you asking for help or just advise. As I remember these times I also remember the responses. Not one time did one go un-replied. And finally, on of the last major things I learned on here was that everybody, no matter who you are or how you fit in, is different. But not only that people are different (I did know that), but that it was ok to be different (didn’t understand that). I was confused and thought I had to hide the person I was because of my differences. I learned that I could be like a butterfly. I could show off my flaws as being part of me because they made me, me. So I want to thank you. I want to give you that same advise you gave me, though maybe not in these same words, “Be a butterfly… Stand out!”
I love each and everyone of you on here, thanks so much!